Who aM i?

M3!

The obvious answer to the question is that I am Prakash Mizar. But of course, that does not truly answer who I am as a person. The answer cannot be found on a birth certificate or driver’s license, but only in the heart and soul of a person.

First, let me describe my goals in life, for they are a good indicator of the type of person s/he is. I am a typical young adult about to begin a life in the 21st century. I was born in Gelephu but raised in Thimphu. I grew up in a normal sized house with a mother, father, and an older brother. Even though I’ve been through tough times, I have managed a pretty normal life.

Who am I? This is a question that I should ask myself every day. It’s a question that helps me to evaluate my life, and what it means to me. In order to complete this evaluation I will split my life into three categories, spiritual, mental, and my view of life itself.

Who am I spiritually? I would consider myself a very spiritual person. Both my parents were raised as strong Christians in the Church, and I’ve been brought up the same way. Most of my younger years up to high school, religion has played a major role in my life. It has been the founda­tion to which I’ve based my morals.

However, after High School my spiritual life has changed dramatically. I feel more independent as a Christian, and can explore my own beliefs without feeling pressure from others within the church. My independence has driven me to study different religious views on such topics as cre­ation, evolution, and interpretations of the Bible.

Who am I mentally? I am the type of person who likes to walk the walk, and take action in my life. I look at life, especially at this age, as a time to experience new things. A time to get away from the everyday routine, and enjoy the short time we have on earth. I am the type of person who likes to set goals. Whether it’s to run my own business someday, or do something to serve the Tsa-wa-sum. Some of my goals may seem unrealistic, but it will always give me something to aim for.

My beliefs still remain the same, but I have become more open minded to other views. I am able to listen to others, and understand what they are trying to explain. My independence as a Chris­tian has helped me to improve my education and broaden my view of other opinions.

I view my life as being very precious. I look at life as being short, and hope to make the best of it while I’m still here. My beliefs are what inspire me to be the person.

I like being in front of the computer and watching football. I like football, bread sticks and writ­ing assignments. I value honesty, commitment, scholarship and kindness. These are hard and true facts, but there is a lot I do not know about myself. I don’t know how I feel about the death penalty, I have mixed feelings about religion, and I don’t know what I think about a cashless society. I have no stock answer to offer about a life-changing experience or a moment of enlightenment, and it is hard for me to give a comprehensive proclamation of who I am, for my identity unfolds every day as my experience grows. Since I am only 20 years old, life has a lot of unfolding to do.I dislike saying “I am trying to find myself” because my identity is not lost, it just needs more uncovering. Luckily for me, what I love to do and want to be helps me uncover more about myself. I want to be a computer expert. I may not end up a professional but I will always give my best, because IT is my self-reflection.Every day my experience and knowledge increase, and I learn more about myself. Each time I do what is in my head as honestly as I can, another piece of the identity puzzle is revealed. Mostly, I like what is unearthed. I get moody sometimes, especially when my little sisters annoy me it gets very irritating. I enjoy going on the internet but sometimes I get so addicted I find myself online for hours on end. I believe I have an anger problem, inherited from my dad, but the good thing is that I can control it at times. I enjoy being at home with my family but sometimes I prefer to be outside and away for a while.

My love life is quite interesting at the moment because there is someone. I understand that love is a very good thing when it works out but I also know that it can be very painful as well. Like everybody, I enjoy dating and getting to know people but I just find it very repetitive altogether. I am very happy for my friend though. I get shy once in a while, go red when I stack it and am quite conscious about the way I look. After all, I am human and that’s the way we were constructed to behave. I just graduated high school and I am working now. I do enjoy working life. Uni lifestyle is fun though; the people are all very mature and independent. It’s very different but this whole notion of maturity worries me because it makes me feel like I’m growing too quickly. I’m quite upset and frustrated at the moment. But this is as a result of the confusion I’ve been encountering these past few weeks. But that’s something I have to get my mind around before I explode… So I won’t bore you with that. I love my motherland “BHUTAN” and I am proud to be Bhutanese…..the bottom line is I am blessed to be born in Bhutan.

PEACE